Peace, Love and Happiness

"Did I not speak peace to your mind concerning the matter? What greater witness can you have than from God?" Doctrine and Covenants 6:23

In my life right now this scripture is so important and so impeccable that I wanted to share it. I have felt peace these last couple of days/weeks as I have begun to see a change in the way I have done things and have seen things. I've experienced more peace than I have in the last couple of years trying to figure out what I want and what I need with my life.

This peace that I have felt has come from God, my Heavenly Father. It is a witness for me that God does truly exist and that He loves me and that His Gospel is true. What better witness than from God can I get that the church is true? I can't think of anything better. I know that the peace I have felt is a witness from God and my answer that the church is true. I will from here on out to be better and to follow His commandments and Come Unto Christ. This Happiness that I feel is such a good feeling and I wish that everyone could feel it!

Patriarchal Blessings

"A patriarchal blessing is a unique and remarkable privilege that can come to the faithful members of the Church having sufficient maturity to understand the nature and the importance of such blessings. These privileged blessings are a powerful witness of the mission of the Lord Jesus Christ in bringing exaltation to each of us. Like many blessings, they must be requested by the person or by the family of the one desiring the blessing.

Our testimonies can be strengthened and fortified and our lives given greater purpose every time we read and reread our patriarchal blessings. By their very nature, all blessings are qualified and conditional, regardless of whether the blessing specifically spells out the qualification or not. Each blessing is absolutely qualified and given upon the condition of the faithfulness of the recipient of the blessing." President James E. Faust

One of my all time favorite things to read is my Patriarchal Blessing. In fact, I read it today while on my break at school. Having not read it in quite a while it felt so good to be able to read it and see what my Heavenly Father has in store for me, either in this life or the next. Its such a blessing to read it and be able to feel of that sweet spirit. I actually felt it today. Such a great feeling.

My patriarchal blessing has strengthened my testimony every time I read it and it will continue to do so. Today while I read it, I had this thought come into my mind. In my blessing it mentions temple marriage. That is what struck a thought. A thought that I knew would bother me for a long time. I asked my self this question, 'Will I ever get married in the temple in this life?' I've thought about it before, but not as much as I have today.

A temple marriage has always been something i've wanted. I have wanted that eternal companion and a loving family to be with for all eternity. I want that love that I have seen between numerous couples throughout my life. Of course there is this one thing that makes it impossible. My sexuality makes it hard not only be able to serve a mission, but also to get married in the temple. I know that there are gay men who have gotten married to a woman and in the temple. I do not know how this would work. Although I want it to work, because I want to be able to have those blessings here on the earth.

Right now, all I know is that I have to talk to my Bishop. I am going to turn my life around and be the best that I can be. I do love the church and my choice is to stay in the church no matter what it takes to stay in.

Day of Love

Will you be my valentine?

I have been asked this once in my life. That was yesterday. My roommate and I were in the parking lot of Wal-Mart and a woman walked by with two redish color baloons in her hands. Both me and my roommate responded with, "Ugh, Valentines day." My roommate turned to me and asked, "Will you be my valentine?" I instantly said, yes laughing. We are both desperate. Right? Later my roommate put as her status, 'Michael said he'd be my valentine...is that desperation?'

Valentines Day has never been my favorite holiday. Technically it isn't a holiday, it is just an excuse for couples to make out and women to get chocolate. To me that is basically the reason why Valentines Day even exists. Some of you might disagree with me, but If you are disagreeing with me, are you in a relationship? Are you married? Yeah, I thought so. Some people call it Single Awareness day. That is even worst than calling it Valentines day, because it makes us single people realize that we are alone with no boy or girl there for us to give us chocolates, except maybe our mothers.

I find it funny when a guy is going out with a girl and they have been going out for a while and the girl is so excited for the upcoming valentines day that she plans something. Well, I think its funny when the guy breaks up with the girl before valentines day. Why do I think this is funny? I think so because everyone gets so worked up for valentines day that it has to be perfect. Valentines is just like ANY other day. Am I not right? So why fuss over it?

Valentines Day may be the day of love, but it also makes people realizes how lonely they are! I have one Valentine, my roommate! I love her a lot so i'm not ashamed to be her Valentine! Yes, we're desperate since we're both single, BUT its true that we love each other. haha