Whats wrong with me?
I never actually realized that I HATED the way I looked until I went into Forever 21 yesterday and tried on a pair of pants that should have fit me and a shirt that was bigger than I usually wear. I looked at myself in the mirror and I was disgusted by what I saw. I had it. I had to change. I walked out of the mall and went home and did the thing that I wasn't supposed to do... I had a huge bowl of ice-cream with tons of chocolate syrup. It wasn't a good sign.
Right then and there I got off my butt and drove to my friends apartment. From her apartment we went to Golds Gym and I got myself a membership. Instead of buying clothes I paid for a membership and was told I got a free training with a personal trainer. We set up an free training session for 6 am the next day(today.) Me and my friend, Lacey, got up this morning and went to our free training session. (It was snowing too, not a good way to start of the day.)
During the whole workout I could only think about one thing. 'I'm going to get in shape and I'm going to feel tons better about myself.' That train of thought was going through my head the entire time, plus, 'This hurts, can we stop?' It did feel good, although i'm in so much pain right now I feel like I am still learning how to walk. But the saying goes, 'No Pain, No gain' right?
Right now I look like this-
Then in the future I will look like this-
Fall 2011 Preview: Monday
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