Just Do It.
We all have dreams. We all want something out of life and we all have something we want to accomplish during our lives. I have seen many people reach for the stars and accomplish many things that even they, at the time, didn't think was possible. I bet even the biggest celebrities when they were young like me didn't think they would get to where they are today. Everyone wants something, we all have our dreams that need to be fulfilled.
My biggest dream is to become a singer/songwriter. Ever since I was little that was what I wanted to be. I would blast Britney Spears in my friends basement while we made up dance moves. I would write lyrics early on in my life with a girl who I had known since she was born. Still today I continue to write lyrics that hopefully someday would be a song that I write. Although, there are many things holding me back from chasing after this dream of becoming this person I want to be. Also, I have always wanted to have my own record label and then record music that I love and help others fulfill their dream of becoming an recording artist.
When I really wanted to start pursuing this I decided to check out schools around the country that would help me start my journey of owning a record label. Utah State, however, did not have this type of major and I was pretty disappointed. I checked BYU's Music program and what I found was that they had Music Business. I was so excited. I decided that BYU was the school for me. Little did I know that as time passed things would get harder and my hopes for anything happening would falter.
When I moved home after being up in Logan for a semester at USU, I couldn't find a job. (Still can't.) One by one everything I had wanted to do became distant as life became harder and more drama krept into my life. I looked up to someone as he follows his dreams. I saw that as a resource, but it soon became a deciding factor that I couldn't do what I wanted. I don't know why I saw it that way, but I did.
I started to look again online for other schools, rather than BYU, to go to school for Music Business. I found a school in the heart of LA; Musicians Institute for Contemporary Music. I looked around on the site and I fell in love with it. Not only is it in LA it also has some amazing programs. I was excited, but again felt flustered about when I could go and if I should. At the time I was planning on serving a two year mission, but as things came along and as I started to read other blogs about gay mormon men, it became apparent to me that maybe I couldn't go on one. A glimmer of hope came into my eyes. I wouldn't have to wait almost three or four years to start what I wanted to do.
I'm still struggling to figure everything out, but I hope that in time I will have my answer.
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